This is the life you were made for.

“We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us” -Joseph Campbell

During my three years at university I’ve undoubtedly had to think A LOT about my future career and where I was going with this degree, what I was hoping to do next, what I was  going to become and ultimately what career path I was going to choose.  As someone who comes from a family where education, learning , knowledge  and a strong worth ethic is principle, going straight into university after graduating high school was pretty much a no brainer for me. But nobody forced me to continue studying, I made that decision on my own, because I’ve always enjoyed the academic environment and devoting my time to learning the things that I find both interesting and important.

During my short lived university experience, I’ve spent numerous hours and days kicking myself over the fact that I had no idea where I was headed. I was frequently surrounded by students who ‘knew’ what they wanted to do and the path they were going down, which resulted in a lot of damaging  self-judgments and comparison. I spent a lot of time thinking- So what is it that I want to do exactly? Am I wasting my time and money? Could I be doing something more productive and significant?

Alas, it dawned on me – YOU DON’T NEED TO BLOODY KNOW! Seriously, you don’t. Because who the heck has ever known with absolute and utter certainty, what they wanted to do with their life? Life is just so damn unpredictable and exciting and scary and you never know what is waiting for you around the corner. So I just CAN’T have it all figured out, I really can’t. And with all honesty, I don’t think I want to. I don’t want to have it all planned out from start to finish and know exactly what I’ll be doing tomorrow and the day after that and 5 years after that. Of coarse I like to have some structure in my life and I need it to function productively and effectively, but I am leaving a lot and a lot of room for  uncertainty, curiosity and adventure. I know that things will be figured out on their own eventually. I know that overtime I’ll better understand exactly what career path I want to choose. But I’m not afraid to change paths if it doesn’t work out, because we need to try and learn and never settle for anything less than what makes our hearts sing with joy. Whatever does happen, I will keep discovering my own voice, my own path and finding the ways in which I can make my own genuine contribution, in the hopes of healing if not the world – then at least someone’s world. I’m not entirely sure when i’ll know or when i’ll find that career that I am made for… but one things for certain – I am here for something big and something wonderful and I can almost see it, I can almost reach it.

I am a strong believer in the notion that it’s not how much money you make, but what you do to make your money. I’m a strong believer in waking up on Monday mornings excited for the day of work ahead. I’m a strong believer in finding and then living your dharma- finding  the meaning, joy and purpose in what you do for work. Because I truly think that if every person sang their song, the symphony would be sublime, whole and complete. Let’s not settle for what’s easier or more stable or  more comfortable. Let’s keep searching for that work that will bring fire to our souls and happiness to our days.

Peace and love,

Angelica x

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